Fear...
I fear his death...
I fear my family members' deaths...
I fear that one day,
One day...
Everyone would leave me...
I fear that I would be alone...
I fear that I would fear...
But what I fear most,
Is that I wouldn't tear...
I know one day it would come...
I know that life is vulnerable...
But I just fear...
Fear that...
My memories are not clear...
I fear...
I fear that I wouldn't cry,
Because I wish he was here to try.
I fear...
I fear that the memories left behind,
The hatred has no where to hide.
I fear...
I fear that I hate him to his death,
I fear the memories that I have.
No one is perfect,
Just like you and me...
But why bad memories are the only memories I see?
I am crying...
Not because you are gone...
Not because you are gone now..
But I am crying because I fear...
I fear that one day,
One day when you are gone,
I hate myself for not having any wonderful memories with you.
I fear that I will regret that I wish you wouldn't care...
I fear that I will regret hating you...
I fear that I will regret annoying you...
I fear that I will regret every single moment that I think that you are not good enough...
I fear that I will regret never saying "I love you".....
Can't we just be like friends?
Can't we just have great time together?
Can't we just talk to each other in peace?
I just wanted to say "I love you"...
I am so sorry...
I just can't...
Just not now...
But I fear..
I fear I will regret one day...
That day...
I just hope it wouldn't come...
